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Just say something. I might listen.

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From:

swordofzero

[Suzaku has been worried about Blues. Very worried but he's also not really... great at expressing that worry. There's nothing practical he can do to help. Things had been terrible and he's not sure what he can do or say to help matters.

But he also doesn't want Blues to think he is avoiding him. So it's approaching evening one night when he makes his way to Blues' suite and knocks softly at the door.]

From:

red_song

[The knocking without answer brings Proto out from where he had been in his room, reading a book. When he opened the door he saw Suzaku and, relieved, moved immediately to hug his friend.]

Thank you, for all you did to save me. I didn't thank you then. I should have.

From:

swordofzero

You don't need to thank me. [There was no world where Suzaku would have left Blues there, it was nothing that needed thanking for.

The hug is unexpected but he returns it, arms wrapping around him confidently. He's getting better, with some people, at letting them in.]

How are you feeling?

From:

red_song

I do.

[Proto is learning to let people be kind to him too.]

I hate hell, even if I earned it and belong here.

From:

swordofzero

[He doesn't let go just yet, though his arms are loose enough that Blues can pull away if he wishes, he isn't going to trap him.]

You didn't deserve that. I'm sorry I didn't find you earlier.

From:

red_song

[Why would Blue pull away? Suzaku was more like a family member now than even his own brother was, and that guy wore his face.]

You found me as quick as you did, and you spared me a lot. You brought me to shelter too. I thank you for that.

From:

swordofzero

[He still feels guilty, but he nods. He had done what he could, all that he could.]

I hope it was the right place, to take you to Steve... [He is not sure exactly what happened between them but he can guess and he feels awkward about that as well.]

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red_song

It was safer there. He... helped me recover. Thank you.

From:

swordofzero

I'm glad. I'm glad he could help you.

[He looks a little awkward. Everything about the last couple of weeks has been awkward.]

From:

red_song

You saved me. That's twice. You keep saving me.

{And that mattered.]

From:

swordofzero

You deserve to be saved. [He would save him as many times as he could.

He didn't want anything to happen to him, though he was clearly too late for that. Blues lived in hell, terrible things would happen, but Suzaku tried to watch his back.]

From:

red_song

You and Sara, you did much for me in this. Thank you.

[He... He tried to smile. All he wanted to do was hug Suzaku again.]

I have decided. You're my best friend.

From:

swordofzero

[He blinks at that. No one has ever declared himself his best friend before. Not ever.

He's not sure what to say, or do. He just looks at him.] Thank you Blues...

From:

red_song

[Blues nods in approval. It was accepted.]

I don't think it needs to be thanked. It is how we are.

From:

swordofzero

I guess... [It feels like something he should thank him for. But he just nods, still stood awkwardly.] Um... I guess that was all I came over for. To see how you were doing.

From:

red_song

[No! His little robot emotions say he can't lose Suzaku yet. He almost reaches out to stop Suzaku. Hand even comes up part way. Before he drops it down.

He shouldn't be needy. And yet... Hadn't Bucky said it was right for him to expect things too?]

Please, I... I could use some company.

From:

swordofzero

Of course. [He sees that arm and he doesn't move, not away and not closer. Still awkward.

But it's clear that Blues needs some company and he isn't ready to be left alone so soon.]

May I come in?

From:

red_song

[Of course he could come in. Proto moves aside and gestures to the room.]

You are always welcome.

From:

swordofzero

Thank you. [He steps in. ] Did you want to do something. Play a game? Or watch a film? [What do friends do? He has so little experience in any of this.]

From:

red_song

A game?

[In all this time here, he has never actually played a game. In fact, he didn't even know what they would entail.]

From:

swordofzero

Do you know any. I don't know many but we can play one if you wish, they are often a distraction. [And that might be what Blues needs right now.]

From:

red_song

No. I was never taught any games in my time. I haven't learned any here.

[For all that he was made to be young, he'd never truly had a youth.]

I know movies, a little. I was gifted some. Most of them are about machines rising to dominance over humanity.

From:

swordofzero

Ah. I don't know many movies. We can watch one if you wish? [Even if it was about machines rising to dominance. Did Blues like those movies, or were they what had been deemed appropriate?]

Honestly I don't know that many games either. Just a couple I learned here and a few I remember from being a child.

From:

red_song

[They had been given to him ironically actually. And he had loved them.]

Are we... Pathetic for not knowing these things?

[Clearly someone had been thinking about stuff lately.]

From:

swordofzero

Perhaps. [It probably won't make Blues feel better.]

But I think it is more so that we both come from places of war. There was no space for such things in our past.