Inbox - Penance

[red_song]

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Just say something. I might listen.

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[twatter]

your world is way more advanced than most. even my own. i'd say we're a few decades shy of the tech you got, but we're getting there

[red_song]

If you are there to help promote it, I believe you shall reach it.

[Faith is new to Proto, but damn if it hasn't come naturally in this situation.]

[twatter]

[ Oh geesh. That makes his heart swell. He's so used to being insulted and berated that this beautiful faith doesn't come naturally to him. ]

i can't do it without you. when tech begins to awaken, i need someone who knows what it's like and how to guide it. i need you, Blues

[red_song]

[Well that's silly. Anyone who doesn't worship him is clearly stupid.]

I am only an echo of what I was. I cannot guide. I was failed. Discarded. You tell me I am better, but I do not know.

[twatter]

you won't be an echo there. we can get you back to what you were. i don't think you're a failure either. even in this human form, you are growing and leaning. accumulating knowledge and expanding your mind. we grow, we make mistakes, but unlike humans we learn from our mistakes and improve.

[red_song]

I was designed to learn, to grow, to think independently, and make decisions. I am still constrained by my code. Or I was, before I died. I do not know now. But if I do not learn I cannot grow, and if I do not grow then what was the point of everything?

[twatter]

there is no point without learning. 100% agree.

when they get power up and running fully, i can try connecting with you again if you want? see if i can find some trace of your code and help you understand yourself better in this place.

[red_song]

I would like that. Otherwise I shall just do my best to figure out how to be more me.

[twatter]

we'll do it together. you don't have to be alone in this anymore.

[red_song]

I don't know if I am alone. But I do find myself glad for you.

un: t3cHg0d69; text

[twatter]

hey so like, you'd tell me if i fucked up, right? you'd be honest with me, right?

Re: un: t3cHg0d69; text

[red_song]

If you ask it of me.

[twatter]

do you consider it cheating on someone to like flirt with someone else?

[red_song]

From the data I have gleaned from other people, yes. Definitionally it is cheating. However humans are limited in understanding. Software can be compatible with multiple OSes. To be bound to a single platform is unwise and prone to destruction of viability of interaction.

[twatter]

ok so yeah. that probably wasn't smart and like i could have done it in private but the fact that i didn't means i wasn't hiding it yanno?

and now monika's mad and she won't answer my texts

and that's not even the biggest deal bc i........

well i REALLY fucked up. worse than just flirting and i was gonna tell her. but now idk if i should if this is how she's acting. what if she leaves me?

[red_song]

You are well aware of my opinions of her and her worthiness of you.

If she cannot handle the fact that one as great as you cannot be limited without confining you in unfair ways, she continues to meet my low expectations.

[twatter]

you really think i'm great?

[ Somehow in all of that, that's the thing he honed in on the most. ]

[red_song]

You are my most special person, other than my brother.

[twatter]

i'm worried i'm gonna fuck that up for you, blues

because that's all i ever keep seeming to do

disappoint people

i proposed to monika. then only a few days later, i slept with someone else.

i couldn't even uphold the vow i made for a fucking week

[red_song]

Humans traditionally have many months to years of association before suggestions of long term association from my understanding.

Perhaps you should realize that the vow was not one that should have been made. You are a god, not a mortal. You should not be beholden to mortal laws. Especially contradictory human norms.

[twatter]

[ Loki's words come to mind, playing in his head like a mantra. If you want a possession, then marriage will not solve anything. It will not keep her tethered to you. ]

gods get married too

most of them cheat, tho

i wanted to be different than that

and maybe it was too soon to ask

but i love her and i wanted to prove that i love her

[red_song]

If you love her, then saying it alone should be sufficient for her. And we are mortal programs, she has no right to put demands or expectations or limitations on the love you are capable of. Period.

I do not care what other gods do. You are not other gods.

[twatter]

you're right about that. i'm not other gods

i am better and superior

but the world writes a lot of love songs about how like love is more than words

and you gotta show don't tell

idk. this shit is new and idk how i feel about it

but i know it feels like shit right now

that saying 'it's better to have loved and lost than to never love at all?' that saying's bullshit.

[red_song]

I have never heard a love song. I do not base my world perception upon them. It would be foolish.

If you feel bad, then it's her fault and you don't deserve that.

[twatter]

lol i appreciate having you in my corner man.

but like do you really think its her fault or is that just you saying that bc you don't like her?