Inbox - Penance

[red_song]

...
Just say something. I might listen.

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[red_song]

I can't be what I am meant to be: only machine. Nor can I ever be fully human, as some would have me aspire to. I am both. I am neither. I must find the way to make it work.

[swordofzero]

Yes, it can be very hard. To be between two worlds and have people want you to be one or the other. But... You can only be yourself. At the end of the day. If that is somewhere in between. Then that is who you are.

[red_song]

And if I don't know who myself is anymore?

[Somehoe he doubts that's true actually. He probably knows who he is. He just has to get to know himself.]

[swordofzero]

I don't know. Sometimes that's just... how it is. You lose yourself. [He's maybe the worst person to be talking about this to.]

[red_song]

[Lose yourself? Proto frowns. And to comfort himself he brings his legs up against his chest and holds them.]

I don't want to be lost.

[swordofzero]

[He is just making this worse. He can tell. He sits still, looking at his hands.]

I don't think you will be.

[red_song]

[Perhaps not worse. Perhaps he was just telling Proto things he didn't know.]

If I lose myself, will you help me find myself?

[swordofzero]

Of course. I will always help you.

[He can't promise to be successful. But Blues is his friend, so of course he would help.]

[red_song]

[Oh if only he could come up with that name for Suzaku too. He needs so many words he doesn't have.]

Thank you, Suzaku. I believe you.

[swordofzero]

[He just nods, falling silent again.

He really never knows how to react to Blues' friendship.]

[red_song]

[He doesn't need to react, just watch this movie with his friend.]

wrap?

[swordofzero]

[That he does, watching silently as the movie plays.]