[He will probably rapidly change his opinion on how good it is for Blues as he actually sees it. But for now he sits next to him and watches as the film starts.]
It is. [Though sitting and watching a film wasn't something he had done much of in the past. Always too much to do.]
Interface with them? To get the data directly from them? [Wouldn't that be just like downloading. Or is that what Blues means, that this feels like that.]
No, I do not believe that is a human thing. I believe that is a thing of intelligent beings. I wished my life and freedom before becoming human. I wanted my father's love as well.
[To want love, unconditionally, from your parent or creator. Perhaps that was just a basic need.]
Ah. Apologies. [He focused on the screen for a moment, quiet.] I don't know many people who aren't human. [C.C perhaps counted, but even she had been human once.]
I can't be what I am meant to be: only machine. Nor can I ever be fully human, as some would have me aspire to. I am both. I am neither. I must find the way to make it work.
Yes, it can be very hard. To be between two worlds and have people want you to be one or the other. But... You can only be yourself. At the end of the day. If that is somewhere in between. Then that is who you are.
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It is. [Though sitting and watching a film wasn't something he had done much of in the past. Always too much to do.]
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I used to be able to interface with data systems, when I was first created. This is more like downloading data.
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[It's just like that. He can't even begin to explain the difference to Suzaku. It's a sensation a human cannot experience.]
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[Proto sighs, frowning at the screen.]
I finally became free of my code, to be my own person. And yet I wish I was what I once was. How is that fair?
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[To want love, unconditionally, from your parent or creator. Perhaps that was just a basic need.]
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I do not know how to balance myself.
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[He is focused on Proto now, rather than the film in front of them.]
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[Somehoe he doubts that's true actually. He probably knows who he is. He just has to get to know himself.]
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I don't want to be lost.
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I don't think you will be.
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If I lose myself, will you help me find myself?
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[He can't promise to be successful. But Blues is his friend, so of course he would help.]
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Thank you, Suzaku. I believe you.
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He really never knows how to react to Blues' friendship.]
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wrap?