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My brother. That was his true name, as Blues is mine. I didn't give anyone it before, because it should be his choice. But he is gone now. And I'm alone.
[And alone with Rock gone is very different from not spending a lot of time with Rock. Very different.]
My eyes hurt from crying at night. And my head too. IT has been a while and it still hurts.
[Suzaku, know it or not, has unlocked the deeper emotional connection level.]
[And alone with Rock gone is very different from not spending a lot of time with Rock. Very different.]
My eyes hurt from crying at night. And my head too. IT has been a while and it still hurts.
[Suzaku, know it or not, has unlocked the deeper emotional connection level.]
[Mega... He was gone. Blues was alone.] Would you like me to come over? [He's not sure what will help. Grief was a terrible thing. It was something he had far too much experience with but it never got easier. Not for himself, not for helping others.
It would hurt for a long time. Perhaps forever.]
It would hurt for a long time. Perhaps forever.]
I do not wish to be in this room. I hate it.
[He hates it so much. He hates the walls. He hates the sameness. He hates that it feels like an empty space. All he wants to do is keep being curled in a ball whenever he isn't out doing research or with one of his trainers.]
[He hates it so much. He hates the walls. He hates the sameness. He hates that it feels like an empty space. All he wants to do is keep being curled in a ball whenever he isn't out doing research or with one of his trainers.]
You can come to my room if you would rather. Or we can go elsewhere. You do not need to remain in your room alone.
I can meet you and we can find a place. Are you hungry?
Ah I see. Well getting fit is more a matter of what you eat, rather than how much and how much physical exercise you do.
Is that what you are trying to do?
[They've spoken of it before, but Suzaku has never wanted to push him. He doesn't want to make a fighter out of someone who isn't. Someone who hasn't made that choice.
Especially someone for whom choice has not been something they've had much of in the past.]
[They've spoken of it before, but Suzaku has never wanted to push him. He doesn't want to make a fighter out of someone who isn't. Someone who hasn't made that choice.
Especially someone for whom choice has not been something they've had much of in the past.]
That's good. I'm glad you have help. Steve and Bucky are both very good fighters. I don't know Sara.
[But he had no doubt she would be another good teacher.]
[But he had no doubt she would be another good teacher.]
Friends can be guiding. I suppose something like a mentor might be correct? [Maybe.]
I'm glad though, that you have important people.
I'm glad though, that you have important people.
Ah. Perhaps. [His mentor growing up had been closer to him than his father in many ways, but he can understand. It's not a term that often means a closeness.]
You are very important to me too Blues, but I am glad you have more important people.
You are very important to me too Blues, but I am glad you have more important people.
[It's a strange sort of pressure. Knowing he is so important to Blues. He doesn't want to mess things up, do something that will hurt him, when so much already has.]
Hopefully you will find even more.
Hopefully you will find even more.
You don't. This can be enough if that is what you want.
yo, blues
i don't wanna worry you, but also i think you need to know about this...
i'm going away for a while.
there was a situation. it's messy and complicated, but it got resolved. i made a deal with mammon to save a few people, but because of the deal i gotta pack up and head back with mammon to his island for a bit.
i'll be back, tho. i promise you that.
i don't wanna worry you, but also i think you need to know about this...
i'm going away for a while.
there was a situation. it's messy and complicated, but it got resolved. i made a deal with mammon to save a few people, but because of the deal i gotta pack up and head back with mammon to his island for a bit.
i'll be back, tho. i promise you that.
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